Everyday we look for happiness. Some of us look for happiness from someone else, from somewhere else. The elusive pursuit of happiness has become the daily purpose of almost all of us.
Kids find happiness in every little thing they have. My nephews playing with their puppy are happy. My niece hugging her stuff toy dog is happy. The boys played with a real dog. The girl played with a stuff toy. They share the same excitement. The same happiness.
Yet adults gloat over events that happened in the past they can’t change and about the future they haven’t been.
I had my fair share of gloating too. Ha ha. I gloat over the past and feel wary about the future. I became depressed and hopeless. I grew to be obese and didn’t feel good about myself yet I continue feasting on unhealthy food, no-holds barred. I would cry over a funny movie because I chose to replay the tearful events of the past than enjoy the fun of the the movie currently playing. I would always see sadness in every humor. I would zone out in a room full of noisy and seemingly happy people.
Yet, my friends and colleagues saw me as a strong woman, happy, doing a job that most of my colleagues would like to have. A woman who who finds humor in everything. Life is truly ironic. Or was I a good thespian and the world was my stage?
Open palm. I’d like to look at it as a reminder that letting go may be better than holding on. I’d like to think of it as reminder that things come and go, that we don’t have any control on the natural course of nature. This is a curious part of our lives. It has to be felt, appreciated, experienced. Nature evolves and so do we.
The lines and creases of my palm is a wonderful documentation of my life’s history. It shows me the lessons of the past. It shows me the path to my future.
Happiness is not in some place I don’t know where. I realized that happiness is not with another. Happiness is in myself. I have it all along. I only needed to appreciate and want what I already have. Lesson 44. I already have everything I truly need. God truly never blinks. 🙂
I left the gloating and hopelessness behind. The fact that I thought I was hopeless means I believed in hope. And because I believe in hope, I was in fact hopeful. The fact that I was depressed means there was happiness that was aching to get out. Ha ha. The irony of life.
When I feel sad, I choose to think happy thoughts. When someone attacks me, I choose to be calm. When I feel terrified, I choose to fly.
I lost a total of 48 lbs (21.82 kg) already in a matter of 10 months. The moment I chose happiness, I also started living healthy lifestyle. I shun away from processed food. I chose to enjoy real food. I chose to move my butt. Ha ha. There is no substitute to exercise. From 180 lbs in June 2014, I am now down to 132 lbs. I feel lighter. I feel nimbler. I am happier.
Happiness is my choice. Happiness is my daily choice.
What about you?