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Where does your happiness lie?

Everyday we look for happiness. Some of us look for happiness from someone else, from somewhere else.  The elusive pursuit of happiness has become the daily purpose of almost all of us.

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Kids find happiness in every little thing they have.  My nephews playing with their puppy are happy.  My niece hugging her stuff toy dog is happy.    The boys played with a real dog.  The girl played with a stuff toy. They share the same excitement. The same happiness.

Yet adults gloat over events that happened in the past they can’t change and about the future they haven’t been.

I had my fair share of gloating too.  Ha ha. I gloat over the past and feel wary about the future.  I became depressed and hopeless. I grew to be obese and didn’t feel good about myself yet I continue feasting on unhealthy food, no-holds barred.  I would cry over a funny movie because I chose to replay the tearful events of the past than enjoy the fun of the the movie currently playing. I would always see sadness in  every humor. I would zone out in a room full of noisy and seemingly happy people.

Yet, my friends and colleagues saw me as a strong woman, happy, doing a job that most of my colleagues would like to have.  A woman who who finds humor in everything. Life is truly ironic.  Or was I a good thespian and the world was my stage?

Open palm.  I’d like to look at it as a reminder that letting go may be better than holding on. I’d like to think of it as reminder that things come and go, that we don’t have any control on the natural course of nature.  This is a curious part of our lives. It has to be felt, appreciated, experienced. Nature evolves and so do we.

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The lines and creases of my palm is a wonderful documentation of my life’s history. It shows me the lessons of the past. It shows me the path to my future.

Happiness is not in some place I don’t know where.  I realized that happiness is not with another.  Happiness is in myself. I have it all along.  I only needed to appreciate and want what I already have.  Lesson 44.  I already have everything I truly need.  God truly never blinks. 🙂

I left the gloating and hopelessness behind.  The fact that I thought I was hopeless means I believed in hope.  And because I believe in hope, I was in fact hopeful. The fact that I was depressed means there was happiness that was aching to get out. Ha ha.   The irony of life.

When I feel sad, I choose to think happy thoughts.  When someone attacks me, I choose to be calm.   When I feel terrified, I choose to fly.

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I lost a total of 48 lbs (21.82 kg) already in a matter of 10 months. The moment I chose happiness, I also started living healthy lifestyle. I shun away from processed food. I chose to enjoy real food. I chose to move my butt. Ha ha. There is no substitute to exercise. From 180 lbs in June 2014, I am now down to 132 lbs.   I feel lighter. I feel nimbler. I am happier.

Happiness is my choice.  Happiness is my daily choice.

What about you?

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Over scone and latte

I have this fascination with scones since I had my first taste of this biscuit in Toorbul, Queensland, Australia.  Scone was one of the desserts that our picnic hosts, Liz and Colin Tune, served.  Since my first fill of this delicious flour-based dessert, I promised myself to find it in my home country and experience it again.

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Staying at Paddington, this is the bus stop at Gilday Street where we waited for the bus daily going to work during my almost 1 month visit in the laid back, peaceful, and beautiful city of Brisbane.

The Coffee Bean in Burgos Circle at the Bonifacio Global City in Taguig didn’t disappoint me today.  They have this last piece of raisin scone for the day.  Haha.  With a cup of latte and 10 g of butter, the scone was pure bliss.

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 Today’s delicious raisin scone at Coffee Bean.

For over a year now, I’ve finally picked up and read a real book again, printed in real paper.   What an amazing feeling.  I feel my humanity again.  The last book I’ve read was World War Z which I’ve read through the e-book version, almost a year ago.

There are 50 chapters in the Regina Brett book I’ve read.  She calls it “50 Lessons for Life’s Little Detours”.  She wrote it so beautifully that I felt like she was just in front of me, talking.  She is so sincere in the retelling of her life’s detours (the positive word she chooses to describe her life’s pains) and how she learned from them.

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The truth is the pain from the rejection caused by a break up I never so expected caused a turmoil in my being I thought would never end. For some time, I stayed in my little corner of wishful thinking and imagining the “what ifs”.  What if I did this? What if I did that?  What if? What if?

While I was busy thinking about the “what ifs” of my life. I saw myself feasting on all the delicious (and unhealthy) food my eyes would crave. I was stress eating, depression eating, fatigue eating, over-eating, and eating based on what my eyes would want. I ballooned to become a 180-lbs class 1 obese woman.  Food was my refuge. Or so I thought.

One of the lessons Regina Brett shared in her book says “Life is too short for long pity parties.  Get busy living, or get busy dying.”

In June of 2014, I made a life-changing decision.  It was time to let go of the “what ifs”. It was time to accept that the break up happened because it was how it had to happen. It was how it had to end.  There is so much love to give.  But I’ve forgotten to love myself.

It was now time for me to get some loving.  And who else can give me the pampering I so understand?  I realized, it was, no other, but me.

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This is a photo of me taken about 4 days ago.

Fast forward to 10 months later and healthy living in between, I shed off a total of 47 lbs. From 180 lbs in June 2014, I am now down to 133 lbs.

Happiness is my choice. I am happy. 😀